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More Changes

Having issues with anxiety and learning disorders can be hard. For me, I take a while to settle on majors because I do not know which kinds of classes I can handle. I thought a lot about my major and how hard it is for me to take in these details just for the biology class. I love it, but my brain cannot handle reading and processing the information. I realized that for me, I’d want more of a hands-on approach.

Because of these reasons, I have gone back to English as a major. I still want to pursue some knowledge of medicine and first aid since it intrigues me, and it is a wonderful thing to have. However, if I wanted to, I will go for a Medical Assistant Associate degree after I graduate if I still want to pursue it. However, if I fall in love with something else and find another career with my degree, I will go for either a first responder course or a wilderness first responder course. Either way, I think it’s a good thing to know in any situation.

Posts

So, for the last three weeks, I had been posting twice a week. Once with old discussion posts and then excerpts from the book I am writing. I will try to keep up with that, but It was initially because I was getting very anxious about my classes and work. That is why they were scheduled posts. Again, my blogs will comprise multiple things since I am so passionate about various subjects. I will try to make weekly updates about the story I am working on, but lately, I could not work on it.

I also have some “prepper” projects I am working on and my views on certain parts of that aspect and community. I will never write negativity because I love to spread positivity. I am also working on finally moving out with my partner, so I will post about that. Thank you again for liking and following my blog to all who have.

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Disabilities, Mental Health

Natural Ways to Deal With Anxiety

Some people who are diagnosed with an anxiety disorder have it so severe that they must be on prescription medication to deal with it. I feel very thankful that I am not one of those individuals. I have very bad anxiety, but I have found natural ways to deal with it instead of being on a prescription anti-depressant.

*When reading this, please do not drop all the medications that your doctor has given you to try my methods. I am not a professional. I am just here to give suggestions to help relieve the anxiety and stress that can interrupt life. I want to help people like me who wish to live a more natural life as much as possible. I take prescriptions when I really need them. I take the generic of Cymbalta to treat my Fibromyalgia symptoms. However, these suggestions can be used alongside medications to aid in easing Anxiety

One main way that I deal with my anxiety, is that I try to meditate at least five minutes a day. I found that this method really works if you keep at it. However, not everyone has time for meditation or has the energy to do so. There are some days where I am so exhausted, that I go to bed instead of meditating. There are other times where I am sick and cannot focus enough to meditate.

I found the best way to meditate is to clear and balance all the Chakras. You can find Chakra meditations anywhere online and there are some apps that guide you through a chakra meditation. Clearing out chakras not only clears your mind and anxiety but helps in various ways as well. One time, I had a stomach ache that would not go away. Once I cleared out my stomach Chakra, the ache was gone. I’m not saying that aches and pains are always stemming from clogged chakras, but sometimes they might be. It’s just an observation.

I also found that starting out learning how to meditate, binaural beats help you learn how to get to that state of mind. These beats help, because they are designed to make the brain act a certain way by giving a certain tone to different parts of the brain. I am not a scientist so I cannot exactly elaborate, but it is a great tool for learning how to go into a deep meditation. There are many apps out there with these beats, along with YouTube videos. The best suggestion is to wear earbuds but does not let the volume exceed a certain point or it might hurt your ears.

Another way I relieve stress and anxiety is indulging in my hobbies. I have many of them. I love to write, role play, belly dance, crafts, and cosplay. Role play and writing usually go hand in hand, since I have a few co-written projects with a friend and we role play them in order to work out the kinks. It is not only fun and relieves stress, but it is also productive at the same time. Instead of shutting down my brain, I am engaged in a story and new ideas.

I found that with anxiety, as long as I keep my brain active I do not feel anxiety as much as I would if I was thinking of nothing. If I keep my brain thinking of other things when I have free time, it helps me avoid thinking of negative things that could cause an anxiety attack. This is why I always try to think positive even when everyone around me is thinking negative. I find that positive thinking makes everyone’s day at least a little brighter.

However, sometimes too much brain activity can cause even more anxiety at times. For the times where anxiety is so bad that none of these ideas could quell them, I was previously at a loss until someone suggested to take CBD oil. This oil can take the form of oral or vape. It is an oil that is taken from the hemp/marijuana plant however, it does not contain the chemical THC that causes the “high” and the part that is illegal. I find that one drop of this during one of my anxiety attacks can ease the tension and let me think clearly.

I hope this information can help someone who wants to win their life back.

Disabilities, Mental Health

Overcoming Challenges

As a child, I struggled throughout school with undiagnosed learning disabilities. Unfortunately, my parents did not know how to get me tested or even knew that I had something wrong. In school, I was seen as lazy or even stupid in some classes because of how much I struggled. Since I had always loved reading and writing, I was able to figure out ways around my dyslexia. When I read things that were somewhat difficult, I used two rulers to section off sentence by sentence so I could concentrate on one line at a time. For editing my writing, I printed it all out and physically marked up the papers and wrote arrows for parts that needed to be said earlier or later. However, math was a different story. Since I had no interest in the subject, my unknown disability really hindered my abilities. In order to get through my classes, I eventually began to go over my problems over and over to make sure that I got the numbers and symbols correct before handing in any homework.

Once I began going to my local Community College, I realized just how badly I needed to get tested. I started falling behind in my classes because I could not concentrate enough to read the texts quickly enough. I even attempted to have a job in retail but realized I was not mentally able to handle the cash register and was let go.

After I was finally (first) diagnosed at the age of 22, I was able to get the help I needed. I was able to get untimed tests, and record lectures so I could concentrate on what was going on in the classroom instead of writing note after note. I finally was able to graduate with an Associates in General Studies in 2012. Once I graduated, I figured out what kinds of retail jobs I was able to apply to. Retail chains that had many different departments were able to hire individuals, like me, who did not have to learn to use the register.

Fast forward to the year 2015, retail was the only job I was able to obtain but it was taking a toll on my worsening conditions. I decided to go for the Freelance Writing career diploma from Penn Foster. The monthly payment for tuition was cheap and I got free textbooks out of the deal. After achieving an A in the entire program and the certificate I realized I needed a lot more to get my freelance career off the ground. On a whim, I applied to West Chester University, which was within distance to commute from my home. For two years I enjoyed going to this school but at the same time the stress of commuting, multiple classes, and trying to juggle what little finances I had taken its toll. The program was fine, but in the end, I needed more flexibility. Just a week and a half ago I finished my final semester before transferring to Southern New Hampshire University where I will be majoring in Creative Writing with a minor in Communications.

Along the way, I have met wonderful friends who help me through the process of developing my skills along with professors who helped me realize what kind of goals I wanted to set for myself. I learned that when I need to read books for class that I should try to listen to the audiobook version along with reading in order to comprehend the material. For research, my Professor taught me to write the material I read in my own words as I read it so that I can easily comprehend it better later, which ultimately helps me create the content I need for the paper itself.

I don’t want to claim to be part of the “super-crip” (a term I only just learned through my last research paper which means someone who has a disability and has “overcome” in some way to seem “normal”), but I do believe these accomplishments can be seen as positive and uplifting. There are times where I believe that I can’t amount to anything. Either from others’ words or my own anxious thoughts. The thing about that is that even if times seem dire, one must never give up hope. Never stop fighting and stay strong. One of my favorite fandoms, Supernatural, taught me that and I will forever keep that in my heart.